…but mostly in my head. I've been struggling a lot with whether to really pursue freelancing permanently or continue looking for a full-time job with another company, and it appears more and more that the choice may not be up to me. The market is increasingly discouraging, and the lack of even acknowledgment from most of the companies I've applied to doesn't bode well either. The feeling of being in limbo is the most difficult—I feel the need to chose one path or the other soon, since pursuing them both half-time is distracting, but neither path offers a clear outcome. The matter of location is another complication, since I feel almost equally drawn to stay in Seattle and to move back to the Bay Area. At this point I can't afford to do either.

I wonder if the real thing to do is just take action, almost any action, within the basic limits I've set myself. It certainly seems better than sitting around here in the basement thinking too much, which is what I've been doing lately. I want to follow my bliss as Joseph Campbell suggested, but first I have to figure out what it is, and in the meantime I have to eat.